Initial Commit

I’ve been meaning to write this blog post for a long time. My first blog post. I imagined that it was going to be insightful and inspirational, that people would find themselves bookmarking this site and coming back week after week to see what other treasures I was putting into the universe. I thought that it would be a blog post that reflected the very best of human thought - artistic and ethereal, but also rational, reasonable, almost divine.

But, that hasn’t happened. And now that I am actually writing this blog post, I don’t really think it’s going to be anything like what I’d imagined. I think the only truth in the starting paragraph is that I’ve been meaning to write this blog post for a long time.

In fact, I had every intention of writing this in January of 2019 when the idea for a blog first came to me. But, then I didn’t write it. I had created a wordpress site that was nice, I had gotten hosting, but then I never wrote anything. I didn’t write a single thing in 2019.

Suddenly, it was January 2020 and I renewed my commitment (as well as my domain name) and I thought that I would certainly write something then … but I didn’t. So, I deleted the wordpress site and I cancelled my hosting. I thought to myself that I probably needed to start again and that inspiration would just magically come to me. And, it didn’t work out that way. January passed, February passed, then March came and we were offically in the middle of a global pandemic.

At that point, like so many other people, I was suddenly at home. All. The. Time. But that was okay, because I would have a lot more time to work on projects like this one. I thought that I would surely get my blog off the ground. And then I didn’t. No doubt you’re seeing a pattern.

It’s actually an interesting study of human behavior. I’ve noticed this in myself before - this whole thing about loving the idea of something, but not the implementation. It’s almost more pleasant to imagine doing it than to actually do it. And, to be fair, it’s not as if I didn’t do anything during this period of time. I actually did end up researching and implementing a new hosting strategy, and I went with a different framework for building the site itself. Unfortunately, the important part of a blog is writing things, sharing thoughts and ideas, and I obviously wasn’t doing that. Honestly, 2020 didn’t turn out to be the productivity boon I had hoped for, because while it seems like being home all the time frees you up to “get things done,” 2020 itself was filled with loss.

So, here we are. It’s March of 2021 and I’m finally writing the blog post that I had planned to write in January 2019. Except it’s not simultaneously artistic and rational, nor is it divine. So, clearly I’ve missed the mark. But, if I wait for that blog post to come - the one that’s perfect - then I won’t write anything at all.

I actually have a list of ideas that I want to explore, write about, and share, but none of those are first blog post material. Honestly, I don’t know what “first blog post material” is! It turns out that I don’t know how to start a blog.

I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m an adult, but I feel like I need a better adult to help me. Unfortunately, I’m afraid that’s not likely to happen.

Here’s hoping that it gets better from here.

Perhaps the best option now is just treating this as if it were a comment on a YouTube video … : “FIRST!”

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